The Box

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For the first time in my life I feel traped in a box.  As Americans, we are raised being told "you can do anything you put your mind to."  While we all hope that that is true, it really isnt.  Compared to a lot of other misfortunate people out there, i know I have no right to wine.  However, I still have had this feeling for a while now, that I am cramped, and stuck.  My life is trapped.

I actually blamed it on the fact that I have been sitting on my computer all the time, in the corner of my apartment.  However, I realized its about much more than that.  I feel like I am "in a box" as far as my career path (and life) is concerned.  

I am in a different environment than anywhere else in the world.  I have transitioned to a life here.  I love it.  However, I am paid crap, and I seem to be stagnate in my line of growth and development at work.  As much as I try and want to move forward, I do not.  

The system would say: transfer... it will help you get what you want.  It will open up new doors.  It is true, but what if it doesn't open enough doors?  What if I get to the point where I realize that I cannot go any farther.  I would have wasted another yeargetting adjusted to a new area.  It makes it even harder to make the decision if this wont work, and if its time to do something else.

Don't get me wrong.  I love the job.  However, the longer I am told "just keep doing what your doing, and it will happen again" the more tired I will get of my current situation.

I somewhat blame this feeling on just sitting around all the time when I am not at work.  Money is preventing me from going out and doing things every day.  But I could --and should-- start going to work-out again every day.  But its hard to get in the habit, and stay in it.  I can do it for about two weeks, then I start making excuses not to go.

I am veering off the subject, so it's probably time to stop writing.  

Fox News Reports

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There has been lots of talk lately about the Bush era torture tactics.  Critics on both sides of the aisle have a lot to say on the issue.  Far right conservatives say torture is okay, because it will help protect our homeland.  Everyone else knows that torture is against what this country stands for.

I don't doubt that the Bush administration received information from torture. I also believe that a good majority of that information was probably bull shit, because they didn't want to be tortured anymore.  

We are told by conservatives that if we don't torture terrorists, we will be attacked... and the terrorists will destroy our country.  But if you think about it, when we allow torture, we do more harm to our country than a terrorist ever could.  Once we start allowing this activity as a country, what will stop us from going farther down the unethical road we are on?  Once we say it is okay to torture our enemies, when will it become okay to torture our own?  When will it come to the point that anytime you say something bad about our government people will show up at your door, and put your head in a black bag?

Torture IS NOT OKAY!  EVER!!  If you are the religious right, do you really think your god would approve?  

I wish the conservatives (and Fox news), would get it through their head, that if they just admitted Bush was an asshole, and screwed up, they might have an ounce of a political chance right now.

Bush started the destruction of our democracies.  He started the destruction of our constitution.  We must stop it.

Do you like the difference in reporting styles?

Hate and Obama?

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What Obama said on the Tonight show was wrong.  But before you go out and attack him for what he said, you might want to look at what you say everyday.  The word "retard" is just as offensive and hateful as anything, and most of us have used that word.  Most of us think nothing offensive when we say it.  I know I have used that word.  Without even thinking about it, I have perpetuated hate and intolerance in this world.   We all do, and if you think otherwise, you are in a dream world.

"New Mexico Gov. Bill Richardson signed a bill Wednesday repealing the death penalty in his state, his office confirmed."

Great news from New Mexico, and another sign our country is indeed slowly evolving into a more modern civilized society.  Just the fact alone that we have executed people who are innocent should prevent us from ever EVER having the death penalty.  

The proponents of the death penalty always use the argument "what if they killed your mother, brother, or lover? Wouldn't you want them put to death?"  I find that argument one of the worst in politics.  We do not have a justice system to make the victims feel better.  We have a justice system so we can provide JUSTICE for the crime, and so we can attempt to rehabilitate (even though this doesn't happen), or if that is impossible, remove the person from society.

We are a civilized society, and an eye for an eye punishment is not what it is about.  


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Jimmy talked me into making a Tumblr.  I am not sure how I feel about it.  I want to use it, but I feel like it would replace at least two other services I already have.  1: this blog, 2: Flickr because you can post photos live to Tumbr, and thats why I use Flickr.  I use Flickr as more of a photo blog of my life.  I like the service, it is very simple (almost too simple).  So, I will keep using it for now, and I will re-evaluate how I feel about it over time.

On a side note, is it every company's goal to remove the "e" on words that should end with "er." Flickr and Tumblr are good examples.  Is this like the new "i" phenomenon (i.e. iPhone, iMac, iPoop)?

Added 3/16 8:53pm:

I have set up the custom domain for Tubmlr, so now you can get to my tumblr from Yay

Skipper Trial Verdict

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"Ryan Skipper's Killer Found Guilty Today, Joseph Bearden, one of the two accused killers of Ryan Skipper, was found guilty of second-degree murder and robbery. On March 15, 2007, Ryan Skipper was stabbed 19 times and left to die on a dirt road in Polk County, Florida. His death is a bloody reminder of the anti-gay hatred faced by lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender (LGBT) people in our state. Just days ago, a prosecution witness revealed that shortly after the killing, Joseph Bearden, the defendant, said, "He felt he was doing the world a favor by getting rid of one more faggot." The 19 stab wounds that Ryan Skipper suffered are what the FBI calls 'overkill'. That's when the violence in an assault is beyond what would be necessary for a robbery and more than would even be required to take someone's life. Overkill is a key indicator of a hate crime. During his closing statement, State Attorney Castillo said the brutality of Ryan's murder indicated, "hatred, contempt and utter disregard for another human being because he was gay."

Please visit Equality Florida and see how else you could help in Florida.  For a state with such a large gay and lesbian population base in Orlando and a few other counties, we deserve better rights.  We need to stand up for our rights.  If we did, we would have them.

Safari 4 Public Beta

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Loves it.  Safari 4.0 pubic beta was released today.  I have only been playing with it for about 20 min.  But I love it a lot.  The first thing you notice is your new "welcome page" that shows your most visited websites.  It loads these websites, and gives you a thumb view of them so you can pick the website you want to visit.  You can remove the websites that do not make sense on your "top sites" page.  For example, on mine the "approve friend requests" page came up from Facebook.  I just wanted the facebook main page in there, and i removed the others.

Also, when you go and look in your history, you can view it in the famous Apple "cover view" where you can cycle through all of the pages you recently visited, and what they look at.  So if you dont remember the URL or title of the page you recently looked at, you can just pull up your cover flow history.

Additionally, Apple is challenging the Google Chrome browser in a "Speed off" for the fastest browser.  Obviously this is still a public beta, so downloads are at your own risk, but I recommend you download it for your Mac or PC and try it out!!

Update: This browser screams.  It is really fast, it reloads my website in like a half of a second!
So, I was totally going to blog about the Oscars acceptance speech by the Milk screenwriter.  However, a Dan Lanini beat me to it, so instead I will link to that blog post and insert the youtube video in case you are the type that doesn't like to read.

The Greatest Place on Earth

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While I find myself worried about work a lot, every once an a while I get reminded why I work in the greatest place on earth.

Tonight, It was two animation greeters dancing in the Animation courtyard to the "dance party" music.  And I laughed, and said to myself, "this is what we get paid to do."

If you bitch about your jobs at Walt Disney World, you are taking it too seriously. You work for a company that pays you to make our guests happy.  In order to do that, you can be crazy, go all out and have a good time.

It is really hard for me to accept you hating your job when you work for WDW.  You can hate your managers, you can hate your pay rate, but how can you hate your job?

If you do, you need to find that one place, that one thing, at WDW that will remind you why you work here.  Find those two cast members dancing in the Animation courtyard... or the families on the carousel at Magic Kingdom, or the child a cast member just made stop crying.  

We work in the worlds largest playground.  Sure there are things wrong with where we work, sure there are bad people. But if you cant find the good in what we do, then you have no heart.  There is nowhere else on earth you can do what we do, and get a way with it.

I am not sure why I felt like writing this. But as soon as I noticed those two cast members tonight, having a great time, I said to myself, I need to write a blog about this.  It was just one of those moments where things hit you.

50 random things

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So there is this meme going around Facebook, that everyone has been doing.  I am not going to do it on Facebook, nor am I tagging random friends.  I think you should only be tagged in a note on facebook if you are actually mentioned in that note.  Just saying.

So I am bad at these things, so dont hate.  25 50 random things about me:

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